Time is a Good Friend

Last Christmas, company held a Christmas Party for the charity reading events.

I arrived late at the party, my first notion was to look for Elvin (I blogged about him long back, he's the first kid I taught last March and I never bumped into him again in suceeding reading events). I dont really expect him to remember me on just one encounter. I just thought of probably looking at him from a distance, curious to find out how he is doing after like 9 months. (oops dont tell me this is any motherly instict! I dont wanna be an auntie hehe, pwedeng achi na lng :p)

So I looked at the crowd of like 30kids+, I cant recognize him, no choice but to give up searching.
So there's a quick graduation ceremony, perfect, I guess there's only one Elvin around who'd walk up the stage. This is how he looks like now.


Oh my time really flies.. he's grown so so much, I wouldnt know it's the same kid. Binata na. And he's very far from the shy kid I remember, I can see some confidence and kulit energy from him, playing with his friends. Probably he doesnt need me or anyone like me anymore.. he's doing good. And I'm happy for him.

The power of time never fails to amaze me:

...it leaves footprints behind those we touched or have touched us in their small little ways

...it changes a person's outlook and aspirations, goals and priorities, hopefully in a good light

...it heals every imperfection, every wound, both literally and figuratively

...it makes you forget the bad, the ugly, if you want to

...it magically makes you remember the good, the beautiful when you look back

...it makes you realize how stupid you were with the mistakes you did and puts a smile on your face easily

...it makes you proud while recounting the accomplishments you've made

...it gives you some sour regrets for things you failed to do

...it makes you shudder how much of time passes without you feeling its passage

...it challenges you to make the coming days better than the elapsed days

...it gives you hope into the journey for the future

Yeah, just always give me some time, I just need some time perhaps. The right time at the right place, perfect timing.

Time will always be one of my best friends! Cheers to you :)

'It Sucks'

Office Jinx
Somehow something will go wrong! Amidst the many days that I've got nothing to do, something finally sent me jumping off my feet again. My ofc PC bogged down, and I again had no backup of the files in my pc. Registry file failure. Great! #@!%# I've sent the CPU for recovery, not sure if my files can be salvaged.

Last week my boss called me for a talk, he was persuading to take up development work. Sheesh I dont know why people say 'you can do it', but I still feel that 'I cant'. Whenever someone tells me that in difficult times, I do appreciate but I really want to ask back, 'what made you think so'. Funny that I've survived almost 6 years in the IT industry. Same story last year for this dev thing, but somehow the plan didnt really completely push through. If things go wrong, I guess I really should have PEP (personal employment pass) handy hehe.

I know what I want.
I somehow have an idea on what should be done.
But I dont know how to do it. (probably lacks the discipline or confidence)

Whether about development work or life in general, above statements apply.
It sucks.


Bridge Closure
My friend (female) has been talking with me about her boylets issue. The puzzle guy is also talking with me about his issues. Although the puzzle guy is sometimes really nuts, but somehow his effort cant also be overlooked. He actually asked my friend to come over here and he'll apply a dependent pass for her, whew though I dont know why he seems to be proposing to a not-yet-gf girl, but still effort is commendable. Can you believe that he courted my friend 3 times?! na-basted na ng twice. Finally the verdict, 3rd time is also 'basted'. I asked my friend whether she really does like him or not, she said there were times before where she felt she likes him but he didnt make a move. Oh well so sad. I guess it all boils down to 'timing' :D. Yeah timing counts.

And the annoying thing is that sometimes pati ako hinihiritan. Awww this is not what I want. I dont consider him as reason enough to go against any potential friendship issues. Magpapabasted ka na rin lng, wag sa kaclose ko! Fairly speaking, setting aside everything, also not my type.

Anyway, I guess this is really the end of their story. What a relief, no more bridge! If things are really not meant to be, at least I am happy for them that they both have a 'closure'. Closure might be better at times.

P.S. I guess I also have to find closure for a lot of things.


Point in Time
'At that point in time, I failed to do or say something'.

I was talking with my achi a while ago and she was making fun of me why I have an 'unknown' visitor in my room. Well for info, my achi has the talent of making you feel worse when you are feeling bad, I guess gatungan is also one way of lambingan, at least in my family. :p

I am not really mad, just cant help feeling stupid. The mere fact that I don't want to let you down is the reason why I find it hard to turn down a request coming from you! Period. Bahala ka na.


Going Home Again
Finally something to perk me up. All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go... Hope to see you all :)

Storm

What a long day. All my officemates are gone, somewhere for some reasons. One left SG for vacation. Boss was on MC (medical certificate, equiv for sick leave). One called in that he'll be working from home. One left early to attend to her sick daughter. One said he'll be working late this evening. The whole office is mine today, no one is here except me. The joys of project cutover - Silence. It has never been this silent. The crams, the escalations, the issues, the meetings, all are gone, hmm this is quite unusual. Savor savor! Cause it wont be long when phase 2 kicks in next month and again chaos!

This is not healthy. Surfing too much, talking too much, thinking too much of things. I still have 30min before I can go home, (i guess 6pm is the not-so-garapal time to leave)

Here goes again one of the deep literary fragments that came dancing in my thought.

Somewhere sometime someone strikes something somehow. At some point, I thought I am good yet with some unforeseen amiable implications, suddenly something that I thought that I am, that I have, that I believe in, got tinted with a blur. Left some parts of my world shaking. I cant believe why or how it happened or is it that I flew off the beaten path from the very start. I tried to immerse myself with the world that I believe in, yet unexpectedly you came and shake it off, the rain. Yes, it pours itself so harshly that it overflows. I am alive. But does that mean I have to go through hell hearing the thunderstorms. It amazes me how the mantra just gets hold of me so easily, as if swept by the whirlpool rhythm. It flickers like a beacon in the dark ocean and I feel like the firefly, captivated to fly nearer and nearer. It's just so hard to ignore it. It wraps me like a cocoon and I will be here waiting for the time, the space, the universe, that I shall fly by you and sweep you off your feet. And for once, you will realize, rain or shine, what is bound to happen will happen and nothing's gonna stop it. I know for once I tried.

I'm lost....Again. - Storm

okay enough for the day, going home.

Cool Stuff

Some of the internet thingies:

MWSnap














This is a freeware introduced to me by a colleague here. It's used mainly for capturing screenshots. Before I used to do Print Screen then save the jpg image then open in Paint or other similar apps and do cropping. Now I can save time by 'snapping' the exactly how I want it. Neat and cool.


Twtr
I saw in newspaper one day that Obama was tweeted to office. I got curious whether it's really true. And yes, Obama does have his account (I wonder if he makes the updates himself or has someone else to do it). He has so many followers. And Britney Spears has one too and was hacked. Wow this thing is popular in US. Okay I'm in.