What a way to start 2012. Yes I'm back, finally here. For all the crazy reasons that anyone can possibly imagine, I again made an unpopular decision. Till now I still dont know how it all happened.
Dragging 5years worth of garbage is just a pain in the ass. Packing everything there, and then the agony of waiting for the balikbayan boxes here, and then finally the challenge of unpacking all this junk in your almost fully-occupied room (occupied by previous junk). Oh boy, can you give me extra spaces? I have just promised myself that I wont buy a single new blouse in the next 6months. I'm almost a-third of that.
Getting used to how life was, that itself takes long, I wonder how long. They say beware of what you wished for coz u just might get it. I got mine, days and days of bum period. Omg can this be true :)
And now everything has daunted, I probably have to kick my ass going and look for a job. Where where? Where can I get a high paying job and still get a good life. A good life definition= weekends are weekends. Holidays are holidays. And not overworked. Does that exist in reality? Come to think of it, you have all the time in the world to handpick and work on choosing a good company to start your slavery life all over again, it's a bit scary isnt it? I feel pressure.
And oh yeah boys, I have to remind myself to find a good one. Being unmarried at 30, trust me you get to meet a lot of people. Weirdos included. From too oldies to too youngies (if there's such word), finding someone who's just 'right' nowadays seems like riding a bike. Mabukol-bukolan ka muna.
And friends, where are they? As you mature, it's hard finding people whom you like talking to. (ok the grouchy side of me is speaking). I cannot even count into a handful of those I really consider close friends here. Why do I have lots of achiever friends and people who wants to live somewhere else. Maybe we all have busy lives to attend to, drifting away becomes normal apparentlhy. I suddenly miss my close friends in sg. But then investing time and effort again to form NEW and real friendships at this age, whew it's not too easy to find someone who listens and understands, if you know what I mean. I feel tired.
The only thing I gained so far is spending time with my family, especially my mom. Ok that itself is rewarding and worth all these risks.
Can I be a little bratty? Traffic and pollution and safety issues and inefficiency, can you stay a little distance away from me :) Please help me adjust well and SOON...
Thank you Lord, I know You will provide,,, somehow...
