Monster!

I had this scribbled in a notepad sometime Dec at a sudden surge of negative vibes. Actually, it looked funny to me now after typing and reading it. I think my emotions had toned down a great deal this year, I may get angry for several seconds on extreme matters but I now understand better the meaning of priority - that is not to waste time and effort on things that are not worth it.

If a similar thing happened before, I might not be talking to the monster anymore. Ngayon, there seems to be some change in my perspective. So far for this one, I'm just subtle , thought I gave away an old gift I got from the monster to our helper. (hehe mean?) :p

I am such a loser, I felt stupid. Maybe I cant help but to be gullible on people who I thought are trustworthy. And in simple things, it turned out I was wrong. I couldn’t understand why such a simple thing has to be blown out of proportion and reached people who shouldn’t be part of the loop. D*mn it, so disappointing. I thought I could share things without having worries of negative implications of such thoughts or actions. It turned out I underestimated the cunning acts of a manipulative monster. (to be safe on gender, I will be using it) It was playing its cards well and luck is on its side. I wish I could be more clever to be elusive of the cunning acts. And the bad thing was that it sort of backfire against me as I was quoted of several things. I hate it to be quoted on things I don’t really mean. Me and my big mouth then.

I am not good in using all elements to work to my advantage, something that I am not really inclined to do. Anyway, I guess I now know better. I remembered a saying: listen more, look more, and speak less. That’s the rule of thumb. Ready here I come. hehe