I still cant believe what happened.
First time I had to rush to emergency. Sometimes sh*t happens. I feel so helpless, tired and alone. Suddenly I dont know who to call. I mean the comfort level to hassle someone during tough times.
After I went back, I called home, but still didnt mention a word. I dont want my mom worrying.
A test of faith perhaps. Sometimes when life seems so perfect and smooth-sailing, then something has to happen to jerk me off from my composure. I want to hibernate and hide from everyone for the time being...
我很累...
Monday, May 25, 2009
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Nothing Much
Looking for Mitch
I didnt know Mitch Albom released a new book 'For One More Day' by 07, I saw his book in a book store at the airport. I seldom, seldom, seldom read books and I really find his earlier two books 'Tuesdays with Morrie' and 'The Five People You Meet in Heaven' to be insightful, and even made me cry I think. It makes me wonder what he has personally went through to describe life's stories in such vivid details. I have this feeling that people who 'have stories' are by themselves different, without effort they seem to stand out from crowds who have lived sheltered and pampered lives. However I still didnt buy the book, I dont want to develop a new addiction lol. Other than cookbooks and text books, all the other books that I have read are mostly lent by some friends. So I hope someone lends me (not really 'give' me coz I dont drop garapal hints to get a gift haha!) this one again hehe.
From Back Home
I had a relaxing vacation again back home. It was too short that I didnt notice it ended. I dont know if it's a good thing to go home so often breaking the momentum that I have, as it usually leaves me more questions than answers... Anyway something new: first-timer - tickling foot spa at Manila Ocean Park. And tasting handwash (dont ask me why, I know I wasnt drunk at all!)
Adios B-I-A-T-C-H
I havent been annoyed in such a long, long time. Just when I thought my previous blog entry dedicated to her is the final encounter, I'm so surprised to get a ym message from her last week. May 12, I remembered exactly, I was having OT in office at 9pm and got a ym message from her. After the pa-cutesy small talk, she asked me whether I have already thrown my garbage as the box she threw away from a gadget has a serial number which she is looking for. *#$&%* Whoever in a right mind would think of asking whether trash from exactly 14 days ago would still be in your house? I threw everything that same night because of the bulging garbage can she had stuffed so full, with a sanitary napkin laying on top of it. YUUCUCCK spare me. You really really got me. Permanently offline! I really hope our paths wont cross again in the future. Final chapter. In movies terminology, no sequel, pre-quel, or spin-off!
Luxury is Sleep and Eat
Thanks to the instructor who smsed me that it was holiday (Vesak day). My yoga class was cancelled. I woke up past 1130am on 2 consecutive days (Sat and Sun after my vacation). That is sheer luxury. I've been craving for porridge for the past few weeks after seeing an ad for porridge buffet. I'm not really a fan of porridge, however the feeling is horrible when you crave so much on something and you dont get it. :( No one wants to have porridge hmpff. I made up for it this week, next topic for my blog. *burps*
New Golden Rule
I got some serious talk with my sister over ym. She's pissed on some recurring matters that are bugging her for quite some time. Things which I consider could have been better addressed by some other means, if I were in her shoe. I blurted this to her 'hey if you cant change the situation, change your attitude'. And she was quite mesmerized and complimented since when I have become so matured :p. I just realize how fancy and brilliant my advices can be at times :p. Easier said than done, but yeah sometimes even if you try to be positive, to be hopeful like a fool wishing for the stars, somehow somewhere things just dont go your way. Could be not the right time. Could be you dont understand. Could be you have to let go. Could be you dont see the full picture. Could also be you just have to have a little patience and wait . Anyway I also dont have a clue hehe. But at least, I am impressed and a bit inspired by that quote. :D
I didnt know Mitch Albom released a new book 'For One More Day' by 07, I saw his book in a book store at the airport. I seldom, seldom, seldom read books and I really find his earlier two books 'Tuesdays with Morrie' and 'The Five People You Meet in Heaven' to be insightful, and even made me cry I think. It makes me wonder what he has personally went through to describe life's stories in such vivid details. I have this feeling that people who 'have stories' are by themselves different, without effort they seem to stand out from crowds who have lived sheltered and pampered lives. However I still didnt buy the book, I dont want to develop a new addiction lol. Other than cookbooks and text books, all the other books that I have read are mostly lent by some friends. So I hope someone lends me (not really 'give' me coz I dont drop garapal hints to get a gift haha!) this one again hehe.
From Back Home
I had a relaxing vacation again back home. It was too short that I didnt notice it ended. I dont know if it's a good thing to go home so often breaking the momentum that I have, as it usually leaves me more questions than answers... Anyway something new: first-timer - tickling foot spa at Manila Ocean Park. And tasting handwash (dont ask me why, I know I wasnt drunk at all!)
Adios B-I-A-T-C-H
I havent been annoyed in such a long, long time. Just when I thought my previous blog entry dedicated to her is the final encounter, I'm so surprised to get a ym message from her last week. May 12, I remembered exactly, I was having OT in office at 9pm and got a ym message from her. After the pa-cutesy small talk, she asked me whether I have already thrown my garbage as the box she threw away from a gadget has a serial number which she is looking for. *#$&%* Whoever in a right mind would think of asking whether trash from exactly 14 days ago would still be in your house? I threw everything that same night because of the bulging garbage can she had stuffed so full, with a sanitary napkin laying on top of it. YUUCUCCK spare me. You really really got me. Permanently offline! I really hope our paths wont cross again in the future. Final chapter. In movies terminology, no sequel, pre-quel, or spin-off!
Luxury is Sleep and Eat
Thanks to the instructor who smsed me that it was holiday (Vesak day). My yoga class was cancelled. I woke up past 1130am on 2 consecutive days (Sat and Sun after my vacation). That is sheer luxury. I've been craving for porridge for the past few weeks after seeing an ad for porridge buffet. I'm not really a fan of porridge, however the feeling is horrible when you crave so much on something and you dont get it. :( No one wants to have porridge hmpff. I made up for it this week, next topic for my blog. *burps*
New Golden Rule
I got some serious talk with my sister over ym. She's pissed on some recurring matters that are bugging her for quite some time. Things which I consider could have been better addressed by some other means, if I were in her shoe. I blurted this to her 'hey if you cant change the situation, change your attitude'. And she was quite mesmerized and complimented since when I have become so matured :p. I just realize how fancy and brilliant my advices can be at times :p. Easier said than done, but yeah sometimes even if you try to be positive, to be hopeful like a fool wishing for the stars, somehow somewhere things just dont go your way. Could be not the right time. Could be you dont understand. Could be you have to let go. Could be you dont see the full picture. Could also be you just have to have a little patience and wait . Anyway I also dont have a clue hehe. But at least, I am impressed and a bit inspired by that quote. :D
The Kite
Dont know anything about fancy editing.
Tweaked the pic I took with just MS Picture Manager, it looks good.
I like the effect of the kite.. artsy, hovering on the orange-tinted clouds. And the flyer too.
One lazy afternoon.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
I Bet!
These are some of my fave souveniers.
Framed Memories
During vacation, we seldom buy tourist spot-specific, personalized keychain as they are usually exaggerately priced (foreigner level). However the photo is really excellent - great editing skills :p, so with the packaging. Thus we still bought one each. It's the memory and the feeling that I want for keeps. How much are you willing to pay to frame a fond memory in your mind? Can we frame all the good ones virtually so that we dont forget any?
The Bet, You Bet
I bought two of these shimmering chips (bets) in Senado Square. I just like it :D. Although some people might find me quite different , to be honest I think I'm also just going with the flow and taking only 'calculated risks'. I still have some big bets to make.. I thought I was capable, but still circumstances seem not quite. And the bet might just always be a bet kept in my bag, I wonder when will I be ready to cast it out. The concept of betting, shall I keep it or trade it for something else? Good point.
One more thing, the bet has a church printed on it, with the value of $1000. Funny that gambling and church co-exist - twisted, just like my thoughts hehe. I have twisted thoughts, but somehow luckily I always seem to outgrow those, deviate within acceptable limits and then again retract back to what I should be. Btw, my family smiled so big when they saw me back in my old look, straight hair. No traces of curls and frizz, the wonders of rebond seem to hide everything so neatly, the annoying untamed curls are gone. Now makes me curious who developed this magical concept. Who cares, I love it.
The Glass
Nothing much to explain. It was on sale so I bought it.
B-i-a-t-c-h
This is one of the most ggrrrh encounters. It feels d*mned bad when you get sh*t for a good deed.
I wont want to elaborate what happened. Here's a collection of kabwisitan thoughts:
1. I dislike people who speaks English slang in an unpleasant manner. Excuse me, it really hurts my ear to hear OVER-pronounced English letter, word, sentence. Do me a favor, shut up.
2. Don't flaunt your Fookien in front of me in aim of building a 'close tayo' mood, when I can hear clearly that your diction is not good and in fact inaccurate. I can assure you that my Fookien/Mandarin is of caliber GI level that you perhaps could never imagine.
3. What 'makapal ang mukha' means in the truest sense. I still cant believe how a stranger can act so comfortably in my room, using my things so naturally. Dumping all the trash and even sanitary napkin trash in my garbage can making it overflowing before leaving. The phone conversation was very irritable. Hell, do I look like a hotel operator?
4. I abhor girls who are OVERLY pa-tweetums, pa-cute, pa-sweet to the extremes, ma-PR, over-friendly and shows over fondliness on children, I just dont feel enough sincerity. And I
ALSO abhor stupid guys who fall for such girls and get blinded by that fact and still think that they've won a jackpot, pathetic! The useless bf who did nothing, congrats by the way for having such a wonderful girl who knows very well how to take advantage of others in the sweetest manner.
Okay enough, lame delayed reaction. I am no saint. I'm not like my friend who quit work to join JVP volunteer work to help provincial folks on ways he can to serve the country - of which I respect him but still find the logic a bit off and absurd. Probably I just simply want to do good once in a while in my areas of influence, in little ways that I can. And yet I dont know why do things like this have to happen to dishearthen earthly people and rub the goodness out of them. Hmm probably the world is just like that, it doesn't make any sense to be good after all. Nothing's gonna change it.
I wont want to elaborate what happened. Here's a collection of kabwisitan thoughts:
1. I dislike people who speaks English slang in an unpleasant manner. Excuse me, it really hurts my ear to hear OVER-pronounced English letter, word, sentence. Do me a favor, shut up.
2. Don't flaunt your Fookien in front of me in aim of building a 'close tayo' mood, when I can hear clearly that your diction is not good and in fact inaccurate. I can assure you that my Fookien/Mandarin is of caliber GI level that you perhaps could never imagine.
3. What 'makapal ang mukha' means in the truest sense. I still cant believe how a stranger can act so comfortably in my room, using my things so naturally. Dumping all the trash and even sanitary napkin trash in my garbage can making it overflowing before leaving. The phone conversation was very irritable. Hell, do I look like a hotel operator?
4. I abhor girls who are OVERLY pa-tweetums, pa-cute, pa-sweet to the extremes, ma-PR, over-friendly and shows over fondliness on children, I just dont feel enough sincerity. And I
ALSO abhor stupid guys who fall for such girls and get blinded by that fact and still think that they've won a jackpot, pathetic! The useless bf who did nothing, congrats by the way for having such a wonderful girl who knows very well how to take advantage of others in the sweetest manner.
Okay enough, lame delayed reaction. I am no saint. I'm not like my friend who quit work to join JVP volunteer work to help provincial folks on ways he can to serve the country - of which I respect him but still find the logic a bit off and absurd. Probably I just simply want to do good once in a while in my areas of influence, in little ways that I can. And yet I dont know why do things like this have to happen to dishearthen earthly people and rub the goodness out of them. Hmm probably the world is just like that, it doesn't make any sense to be good after all. Nothing's gonna change it.
My Boyz
Admittedly, I might not be the type who is overly-fond of children and who cuddles each single kid who comes along...but of course, there are always EXCEPTIONS to everything... :D
Meet my nephews... the cutest in the world :) Aren't they?!
They've grown so big and tall! But they dont know my name :(
I remember the oldest one used to be so extremely naughty. I was asked to 'bantay' him in an old parking lot in Binondo and I held him tightly in the hand. He was so swift that he bent down, got some big stones and threw those to the parked cars! It was like omg and I yelled a him 'Gago ka ba, yan ba gusto mo, maging gago?'. Hihi getting me furious is not really a good thing, and hey when I scold, it means I care enough. Good thing no alarms sounded, takas mode.
The 2nd oldest said he broke up with his gf already :)
And now these two seem to be okay on their own without needing anyone to tail behind. Time flies hehe. The two were wearing shirts bought by me, I love dressing them up! :p
Below 2 solo pix were taken by moi, ang gwapo!
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