Releasing some Angsts

Whew havent been blogging for a month. Life is busy nowadays.

Appraise huh?
After scribbling for 2 hours, just a few minutes ago I finally submitted my self-assessment essay-ala-novel for my work. Of course it's all about selling myself for the achievements I have accomplished for the past one year, in anticipation of a decent increase? :p I don't know, part of me believes this is all crap! haha in my previous company I got a pathetic 6% for performing well, but of course that percentage is so much more doubled/tripled/quadrupled during counter-offers whenever someone yells 'resign'. Also, a little part of me is hoping it's a decent increase. Waah wish me luck. I need cash for my enrollment fees. :p


Lipatan Blues
I finally gain the freedom and the normal life I was deprived for the past year. Yes, I didnt have my own room due to several very unfavorable and unexpected circumstances in the setup of the house where I'm staying. And.. my Golly the price I have to pay, 2 months deposit (again!) plus all the tedious cleaning efforts. I spent two nights scrubbing the whole room and wall and cabinets with CIF cleanser and Lysol anti-bacterial liquid to get rid of the smell. Is it a valid excuse not to take a bath when you're not going anywhere on a weekend? I wonder why hygiene is NOT an SOP anymore nowadays.


Money Matters
One thing I realized this month is that I super hate people who have no 'sense of urgency' on money matters. Because of the above mentioned change, I suddenly become the main contact of this house and has to be the collector of rent. Let me stress that rent is an OBVIOUS anticipated monthly expense and there is a certain deadline. I dont get it why people have to be reminded time and again for their payments? And how come they dont voluntarily approach me and I have to be running after their butts to get the money. The payment-on-the-dot thing is a pain in the ass, as if rushing on the deadline date to a nearby bank is something desirable. And ayoko mag-abono!

Another hellish thing, out of a good samaritan deed, I got myself in trouble again. Net, there is a monthly payment charged to my name and the person is not keen enough to make payments on-time. It's not really a huge amount, but then hindi pa rin nakakatuwa. Why am I paying for somebody else's bills?

Before when I was new here, I used a friend's credit card for an installment purchase of a gadget, I was very grateful so somehow I have this feeling to pass the good deed on. But then ang layo! When I was the debtor, all payments are deposited and cleared at least a week before the deadline. When I wasnt the collector of rent, I always give my payment to the collector once I got my pay, which is half month before the rent deadline. Just this, if you can't be entrusted with money matters, then what more can people expect of you?

Another thing I've heard. My friend had a kakilala who was unfortunately terminated from his work contract and had to go back home, also from an IT field. This person purchased a laptop on installment and ran away without paying his debts. I was very dismayed. The basic thing that separates a literate person, a person who is fortunate enough to undergo a formal education in one of the top universities in Phil. Not just about law-abiding, it's morality?! Goodness, a laptop is just a luxury expense. You want to get a blacklist status in all banks and probably government firms in SG just because of a laptop? Ang labo. In the first place, malamang hndi ka naghihikahos sa buhay at bumili ka ng laptop dba? Tpos ganon-ganon na lng? Settle your bills properly.


Where is Justice and Peace?
I wake up in the morning with the TV playing TFC or sometimes Barney. When I go home, I can hear the primetime bida series in TFC till around 11:30pm. It's always TFC marathon everyday, day and night. From MTB to PBB, isusuka ko na. Minsan kung pwede lng, sarap ihagis ng TV na yan. The occasional hagulgol ng bata at midnights or in the wee hours of the morning. Sometimes I can smell the strong odor of tuyo being fried in the kitchen, and the laundry area is just beside the kitchen. Eeewww, cant tolerate the stinky fishy smell on my hanged clothes in the laundry area, straight again to the washing machine.

The angst. The trade-off, the price you have to pay when you make a wrong step. Lesson learnt- choose your hausmates well, better yet stay with those of your same kind (same work, same age group), veer away from staying with big families. Who says the sun is always shining on my side? hehe I just want to be sane and focus on other worthwhile things. My principle in life - IGNORE IGNORE and IGNORE. Kebs ko?!

P.S. Dami kong tinira hehe. I hope nobody involves gets to read this.