Lousy

Jinx?

Series of unfortunate events. I dont know when has life become so uncontrollable for me. For a freak like me, I used to be always in control of what I want to do and I do things based on what my heart and my brain tell me. This year it's like everything that I do is wrong, something along the way will go wrong. I hate the lousy feeling. so Loser.

Thank God it's all outside work and other essential parts of life. It's better to err on other things that those that really matter. As they say, things happen for a reason. Though I still dont know what the reason is. Also as they say, trials build personality. But I am quite tired of building mine this way.

I really want to throw all these negativities away. In life there is no way to move but forward, i know. But still, let me empty them out into the ocean before I embrace another one.